it's 3:30 and I'm still awake. I tried to go to bed at a normal hour. I took my medicine, turned on my thunderstorm music and went to sleep. but about 2 hours later I awoke shivering and WIDE awake, which was no good. and I show no signs of falling back asleep. it just might be one of those nights where my brain won't shut off enough to go to sleep. I have had so much on my mind lately it is amazing that I sleep at all. and through all this I can't write. my characters are drowned out by all that is on my mind.
we did a cleansing of our house tonight(yes we have one of those houses again) and i'm wondering if that is what is keeping me up. you would think that would be excellent source material for a story, any story but I got nothing. YIKES. insomnia is the worst.
Oh and PS congrats to all my friends who are NaNoWriMo winners. my invisible hat is off to you for cranking out the words. and if you didn't win, you still got words down so good for you too!
As a writer,sometimes it is quite difficult to find the emotions to write certain scenes. most of the time we pull from real life. I know I have several times. but lately while struggling through writing the third installment of The Primigenio Tales, I have discovered that I've had to scratch the surface on some old wounds. fortunately this scratching has yielded the perfect emotions for writing difficult scenes and plotting painful issues between characters. one thing I often rely on is music because it triggers emotions and memories. the other day this song came up on my iPod. 945 songs and this came up and it tore at me. now granted I'm already feeling pretty fragile with things around here but this song kicked me while I was down and the words just poured out while the feeling was fresh. I love this song and for the longest time I thought it had been written for me and my life. fortunately I found it wasn't but it still provided the inspiration to write. it's an old song from way back in the day when I was a young Kappa Delta with a broken heart. and it kept popping back into my life with the source of my heartbreak. :( but now it is just a song that gives me inspiration to write emotionally difficult scenes. have a listen. and enjoy the nod back to 80s fashion.
today is Halloween which is like Christmas for me. I love it. So much so that today Scott and I are getting married. It just makes sense. So it got me to thinking about the victorian tradition of on Hallloween at the stroke of midnight, if a single girl looked into a mirror the face of her true love would be reflected back. What an awesome tradition. It didn't take me looking in a mirror on Halloween to know I found my true love in Scott.He is the one. We fit and make sense. So that will be my forever Halloween treat. Joining with the love of my life in marriage.
so Scott and I were featured authors at Spooky Empire, a Horror Con held in Orlando each October. it was a great time to meet fans and celebs like Jason "Jay" Mewes (of Silent Bob and Jay fame...Snoogins!). it was also super to sit on panels about writing and talk about writing to other authors and people trying to get published. I was among some fantastic authors like Alicia Sams, Jonathan Maberry and Mitch Hyman, all who write either horror or paranormal fiction. Scott and I love talking to writers who are just getting started or are bestsellers like Maberry. it's incredible to reach out to help frustrated writers who are still in the unpubbed stage. I especially like to do this because even though my second book has been published, I still consider myself a new author and remember the frustration of rejections and the whole deal of creating the most awesome query letter in the universe so it will catch an editor or agent's eye. anyway, we had a great time at Spooky and will definitely be back to do Spooky Mayhem in May and Empire next October to see the friends we made and hopefully make more!
just so you know...Blood Beginnings is available on BN.com and Amazon now! and it's on sale. I think you will really enjoy this installment of Eamon and Amelie and all of his vampire family. as well as the bad vampire I bring in. if you don't want to buy it, enter my giveaway on Goodreads. I'm giving away 3 signed copies to 3 lucky entrants!
yes The Walking Dead is back tonight and I am a bit leery because I don't think they will bring back my favorite character, The Governor, right away. that's right. my favorite character is The Governor, who is played by the very handsome Brit David Morrisey. He is one of the most complex, evil, big bag of crazy character I have seen in a long time. and I love him like a fangirl. if he ever goes to a con, I am so there with my VIP pass first in line to the photo op room. anyway to celebrate my appreciation of The Gov, I'm starting "Hell yeah it's the Governor Sundays" starting today.
I can't believe that it is almost Halloween.I can't maybe because I am getting married that day and I am wrapped up in preparation for that. or it could be that I have a new book coming out and I am worrying about it like an expectant mother. It's exactly the same happy, nervous feeling. I'm trying to get a book blog tour lined up and I am appearing at Spooky Empire in Orlando as a guest author weekend after next. I'll be on several panels and just hanging out with Blood Beginnings. if you are in the area, stop by! the con is awesome.
my second book is due out at the end of this month or very early next month and I'm getting very excited. it is a continuation of the first one Blood Betrayal with some interesting new characters introduced. Actually it was a NaNoWriMo book. but it has been polished up super spic and span and I think it ROCKS, even if I do say so myself.
yes, it's been since FEBRUARY since I posted and the world has probably forgotten about me. but here's what I've been doing; my fiance Scott moved down to Gainesville to be with me and we began a house hunt. We found a house and moved in May, In June our house flooded from all the rain we got. there was literally 2 inches of water in some places. so we had to move to my parent's house for about 3 weeks. our two boxers are still there because they have had to gut our house and tear up the yard and regrade it. then put some sort of water diversion contraption in which includes a pit. yes, a pit. it will have rocks in it but it's still a pit. then in September my left knee started bothering me while I was training for the Survivor Mud Run(yes another one of those races) turns out it might be pretty jacked up. my knee. not the race. then a week ago I fell down the stairs and fractured my foot. at first they said it was a sprain but then they called the next day to say yes there was a fracture. so I have 2 jacked up lower limbs which compete for causing the most pain. but it gets better. being the independent person I am, I didn't let anyone drive me to work so I wore my support shoe to drive and then was switching to the air boot at work. well Friday the support shoe got caught between the gas pedal and the brake pedal. the gas pedal won and I plowed into the cement wall in the parking garage at work. so now the car is broken. I had a little meltdown/tantrum a few minutes ago because I was trying to do something and because of my injuries and crap being all over the floor of my study, I couldn't do it. so I flipped. I kicked my shoe off which careened off the wall narrowly missing Scott. poor Scott. so I thought I would come back to the place where I tell y'all funny stuff, share my book news as well as my other author friends news and complain about crazy things. this blog is like therapy so I decided to come back to therapy.