well, I have decided to have an affair on my longtime doctor who I have been with for over 13 years. I have been driven to it by the crappiness of the office staff and the feeling of being less valued as a patient. this is a big bag of bullshit because I have been his patient so long that it is crazy and I am a private patient as well as an employee. nothing seems to count for anything these days. you are with someone for years through good and bad and look what happens. this person knows me inside and out.literally. 4 pregnacies of which only one produced a viable baby. countless laps, hormones( holy shit hormones), birth control hell, and a hysterectomy.I didn't get my bladder hauled up from my knees but oh well. will this daliance be the end or will I go back?who knows but I am definitely seeking attention elsewhere. maybe there they will treat me like the awesome high maintenance patient that I am. actually I am not high maintenance now because all my problems are solved. the next doctor is getting a gem!lucky ducky!