today I made the mistake of watching one of my all time favorite movies, The Ghost and Mrs Muir. this is a old romance with Gene Tierney and Rex Harrison. I just love it but it wreaks havoc on my mind. this seems to happen to me when Maddy is gone or I am stressing.(see the posts about my one true love) oh and to make matters worse, the movie Same Time Next Year was on yesterday. that just about killed me because that movie has serious memory jogging ability and just tears me up. BLARGH! I knew I shouldn't have let them call me off today. instead, now I will go and search the site www.urbandictionary.com and laugh myself silly. I wonder who comes up with those. pretty freakin funny. yes, it's not proper English but it puts a messed up smile on my face. it also prevents me from falling down a pit of no romance sadness, which I can easily do. in 1999, after a break up, I watched The English Patient like 20 times. not at once but in a week. the fact that Ralph Fiennes was in it was part of it but it was another of those romantic trigger movies. I am going to hide all of my dvds, change my iPod settings and block my tv from allowing any kind of romance from me until my shields are back up and fully operational. ohhh a star wars reference!!!