this is a picture of pentagon city in arlington. the mall is in the background. what does this have to do with anything you ask? well, I'll tell you and thanks for asking. but I'm irritated right now. big time. so I am looking for things that put me in a nicer state of mind. this is the mall across from the apartment that numero uno lived in. I associate it with happy memories i.e. my first trip ever to D.C and to visit him. we had a bunch of fun that week. and in retrospect I realize what awesome powers I had back then. I suppose you could file this under the think happy thoughts category. I'm pushing out my bad feelings and replacing them with this. if I concentrate, I can smell body shop banana shampoo and smell campfire smoke from mt. vernon. memories of good times with mr on a pedestal numero uno. (I know I said I wasn't posting any more about him but memories of him are like ativan) cosmic good thoughts to him and his family.
I feel extra guilty for being irritated on H.H. The Dalai Lama's 75th birthday. it's probably more bad karma for me on top of the bad karma for smashing a HUGE ASS spider with a broom this morning. it's compounded by the fact that we had coexisted peacefully because I walked right past it 4 times. I didn't have my glasses on so I thought it was either a hairball or something Maddy drew. but when it crawled I panicked.so the wheel turns and I owe more.
but back to my original thoughts...what do you do when you are having bad thoughts or a bad day that's escalating irrationally? just curious.