the freakin grinch

yes I am the grinch.the one, the only, stealin the last can of who hash grinch. I went shopping today and immediately was overcome with grinchy feelings. the music, the decorations, everything just did it to me. I don't know why. hormones?possible. medication not working? maybe. overwhelming life questioning funk? wait stop right there. that's it. it all stems back from this screwing I am getting from UF. that just triggers the whole my life is a big joke I'm a big fuck up spiral. sigh. not even AR can swing me out of this one right now.