me and my big ideas

don't laugh but I seriously wish I could join a roller derby league. yeah, I know. those who know me are probably saying you get hurt just walking but I have never hurt myself on quad skates. and I have always loved derby. I used to watch roller games on tv as a tween. a friend of mine from high school derbies and I am soooo envious. MAN. also, this would be a great way to get out some of my frustrations in a safe way. well, as safe as possible.
so, if you see me posting pics of me derbying...you were forewarned.

yay vampires

vampires forever.or at least until my manuscript is published.LOL. no really forever. I just wanted to say that to all who fail to appreciate the awesomeness of vampires. vampires are the only monsters that scare you but don't make you look away in fear. in fact, your drawn to them. sigh. the mythology of these creatures is so varied and fascinating. you can even put your own spin on them to create your own piece of mythology. sigh.

no mr bond, I plan to KILL you

I laugh at the most ridiculous things.take for instance the above picture. I laughed out loud when I saw this. I still think it's funny. my sense of humor is reflected in the pics I put up here. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. either way, it's a fact. I've already talked about how I laugh at inappropriate times. I'm not worried about my sense of humor, I just think it's unusual. It's like a 4th grade boy meets and intellectual. maybe it has something to do with my love of things nerdy. I do love some nerds and nerdiness. the nerds bring me to my knees. yes some people respond to the cool or brain dead pretty boys but the bright boys rock! a show like The Universe is filled with awesomeness! they can't be total poindexters though.(felix the cat reference) they have to have some crumb of cool or slick in them. the evil genius type. there is an episode of The Simpsons(one of my faves) where Homer gets a job in another town. He is employed by the mysterious Scorpio, voiced by Albert Brooks. Scorpio is an evil genius. probably a nerd grown up and made good. see? never rule out the nerds.all they need to do is realize the one cardinal rule of world domination. NEVER tell anyone your plan before you carry it out.

looking to saddle up

I am currently on the lookout for a haflinger pony for Maddy. Haffies are so sweet and bombproof.I know this is the perfect first mount for her. we are joining the pony club at the oaks so she can learn how to ride and care for a horse the proper way. even though I learned through the get on and hang on method, I don't want her to learn that way. actually I don't think her personality type would allow her to learn that way. she is much too much like her father and very thorough and analytical. thank God. anyway, if anyone knows of a haffie for sale let me know. I don't want a super hunter or dressage trained pony. I want a kid trail ride pony.Although, if the price is reasonable I would consider a hunter.

requires supervision

so I am working on my manuscript without the supervision of super editor. it's like riding a bike without training wheels. I think I have just about accomplished everything on her checkedy check list. I seem to have saved the hardest part for last. trying to explain why my MC loves another character. I'm stuck and my response to her of well he just does didn't fly well with her. she then told me that it wasn't believable because we didn't know very much about her. like in life, sometimes it's hard to pin down why we love who we love. we just know we do. I think that is what my MC feels. instead of fleshing out why they love each other the way they do, I have added more stuff unrelated to that. so much for writing without the supervision. let's face it, sometimes I just need hand holding.

squeee!look what I found!

so while surfing for random information that I needed, I came across this little gem. I Vampire comics. I LOVED this comic when I was a teen. it was awesome. but I somehow lost my copies as I moved around and grew older. then, when I asked my comic book nerd/experts about it, they all looked at me like I was nuts. what gives? then through the magic of technology, I found it again. I knew I wasn't crazy. every time I asked about vampire comics everyone pointed me toward Vampirella. not that Vampy isn't awesome but I wanted my dear Andrew Bennett. this has been a guilty pleasure purchase for me that I plan on coveting. I can't help it. I love nerds, evil geniuses, Alan Rickman and vampires. funny...they all seem related.

winner and still champion

I am still the prettiest girl in court. today's victory was by a landslide. pretty much I'll take an ego boost any way I can get it. LOL. saw the mystery cute SA again. found out that his name is John.not that he told me but because his name was written in sharpie on on the crate of case files he was lugging. so I stared semi longingly at him while I waited my turn to be called. fortunately all my court adventures are over. or at least I hope they are. by these postings I sound like a one woman crime wave. funny thing is I know the judge and he always looks at me like you crazy girl, why are you in my court room. but yay, I am done with court. and no it was nothing felonious or fun. it was something dumb. and not dumb in the looking back it was fun at the time but now it is just dumb.

dude the count is on google today

I noticed that when I accidentally switched from Igoogle to regular. AWESOME!Vamps RULE.
I was watching a really terrific unknown movie and decided to talk about it. it's called The Night of the White Pants with Tom Wilkinson(sigh). this is a great movie about learning to see what is important in life no matter how old you are. check it out if you haven't. another fab movie with him is The Governess.
let's face it I just love independent and under the radar movies. they are gems that I watch over and over. one of my all time favorites is The Search for John Gissing. this movie is so small I don't think it was ever released in the theaters. I only found it on Netflix while searching for movies with Alan Rickman for my film fest. Mike Binder and Janeanne Garofalo are amazing!!this film is funny slick and so underappreciated. I about peed my pants with the nun scenes.if you have google alerts Mike Binder...I heart your movie!

Alan Rickman fixes everything

so I registered for my spring classes as a history major and a theatre minor. it should be okay. but I have a book list of like 12 books. that's a big difference from what I'm used to. at least they are cool. I'm really hoping that changing to history, which is more pedestrian will help with my left arm situation. I seriously don;t know what I am going to do. it now hurts all the time and makes me feel old and cranky.
I'm cheered by watching my dream awesome man AR in Die Hard. I hate that he dies in it but he is one slick mo fo in it. Yum. when in doubt, Alan Rickman fixes EVERYTHING.

the manifesto and me

the chalkboard manifesto is awesome. check it out if you don't believe me. funny stuff. but then again, I love any kind of manifesto. I think I need to write one of my own. the word itself has a renegade kind of connotation that I just love. not in the unabomber way, though. I think he had a manifesto. I know he had a big bunch of crazy letters that he called a manifesto. I don't want a crazy manifesto. no one will take me seriously. oh wait... they already don't.LOL.

even with the time change I have no time

hahahahaha!I just tried to register for my classes on the wrong day. maybe that is a clue that I am too old to go to school. anyway, I have had some truly awesome ideas for my manuscript over the past week. I just need the time to write it. right now I am drowning in a ocean of boxes that need to be unpacked and the stuff arranged. moving is like my least favorite event. I've moved twice in a year. I feel like a friggin bedouin.

the prettiest girl in court

well today I had to go to court for a stupid reason and again I had my little mental of contest of am I the prettiest girl in court? duh, yes. LOL. it's not like I was up against some stiff competition. anyway, while in court I saw the cute a.s.a. I discovered that he is left handed. interesting. I first saw this guy when I had to go to court in january for the time I got pulled over in the stupid fhp roadblock. he's nice looking but probably way younger than I am and probably married but he makes court fun. well, my contest makes it fun but he makes it more interesting.

stabba stabba

well, somedays it just isn't worth the minor ducats that they pay me. me and my dumb job that slowly tries to crush my soul. I sometimes wonder why I torture myself with my job. I know it was only a bad day but sometimes I think it's not worth it and maybe I need to work at the health department or something.

I think I will do some writing. that should make me feel better losing myself in my character's world. they don't deal with the crap I deal with as a nurse. being a vampire in love is much more awesome than being a labor and delivery nurse.

a place of my own

we are moving into our new house and I am WHIPPED. I'm trying to move a whole house as well as 3 storage units. I have no idea why I am doing all of this work when we have movers booked for next week but I am. I am really excited about our new little place.it's old, has property, a stocked fish pond and has a little house for me to do all of my crafts and other endeavors. it gives me quite a nice feeling to know that I will have a place of my own to do my thing. sigh. happy sigh!

it just appeals to the goth costumer in me!

so I am surfing along trying to avoid writing and packing and I come upon(at the suggestion of the black wardrobe) a website with clothing so amazing that I now have ANOTHER reason that I need to live in London. I came upon The Fairy Gothmother. OMFG!this site has the most beautiful clothing and lingerie. I was in gothic costumer heaven. I could have spent hours looking at all of the the phenomenal garments. the models were photgraphed so beautifully! it was all very vintage noir.SIGH! I just want to go to the store in central London and stare longingly at them.