miss understood

nobody understands me. I think this is hilarious and most of those around me in my everyday life don't.but, I think videos made out of lego figures are funny. don't believe me? go to you tube and search lego Hedda gabbler. I guarantee you'll laugh if you know the play.

today was just one of those days. lately I seem to be having quite a few of them. maybe the stars aren't in alignment or some other cosmic malfunction but I've got to figure something out and soon. I don't do emo very well. I get mad too easily.

the fun voices are talking to me...

part of me wants to go see Daybreakers tomorrow early afternoon. the part of me wants to do this by skipping my classes that I missed on wednesday because I was sick. this part of me is extremely persuasive. it keeps saying "come on, go see Sam Neill as a vampire.you've been waiting for over a month. go and eat movie popcorn and enjoy." yeah, I know. frankly for some reason I'm not into school right at this moment. I have a lot on my mind and don't feel like adding more with school. I hate that. part of it is because I'm always hurting. my mood is down because of it. I have to go have some medieval test done and I am already freaking out about it. I know this is a dumb statement but chronic pain is the pits. I'm 40 and feel like I'm 70. what's that all about?  screw it...I'm going to the movie. it's Sam Neill and vampires and I'm doing it. p.s. the part of me said hooray.

the fail of being sick

oh y'all I'm sick and not happy. it's that icky achy sore throat dribbly nose sick that sucks.I'm so sick that I didn't go to school today. this was bad because it was my first day as a rogue history major. I say rogue because I haven't been officially approved. I'll just keep going until they kick me out. kind of like an academic squatter. I was online looking at everything that I missed and tried to do the reading for friday but that was an epic failure. I took one look at it and gave up.it just seemed undoable. yeah, I know that's 2 words that I made up in this post but I'm sick so forgive me. on a brighter note, I finished my website for Primigenio. you can see it on wix.com. just search cautionarytale primigenio and you should find it. it's also on my facebook profile.I think it turned out awesome but my view is skewed. I did have it on the blog but it was blanketing the top part of the blog so I had to delete it. I felt like I was killing King Kong.

behold the potential for an epic win

I found an awesome contest on the terrific blog Shooting Stars, penned by writer sisters Suzette Saxton and Bethany Wiggins. one of the epic prizes is a critique of my first 5 pages.there are other great prizes and their blog is always a fun read. Sigh. so much win and so much epicness. okay that isn't a word but it should be. this is the link...http://suzettesaxton.blogspot.com/2010/01/suzette-and-bethanys-wicked-awesome.html    

 

whoops and Hollywood Gothic

I forgot to send out a happy new year wish to everyone. apparently I was so into being awesome that I forgot, which isn't awesome. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVEYONE!
I'm getting ready to put on my gator snuggie and watch a show on Unversal Horror. I LOVE those old movies. note my nod to the awesometastic Bela below. they were so stylized and atmospheric but at the same time a stones throw from being mystery science theatre 3000 quality. I LOVE old movie overacting!!!Hollywood Gothic as David Skal calls it. JUST FREAKIN AWESOME. like a hundred billion hotdogs.

awesome like a hundred billion hotdogs

my goal is to be awesome, or even more awesome if you know me, "like a hundred billion hotdogs" that's from an Eddie Izzard bit. I love it. he does a monologue about the change in the meaning and use of the word awesome. it really drives home the point of being awesome.especially for those of us who are.
speaking of awesome... I finished my synopsis and it is awesome. maybe like only one million hotdogs but it is still awesome or awesome like a cookie and a coke.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! May your 2011 be filled with happiness and blessings! May you share those with people around you who aren't as fortunate.

reaching his sexy hand through the ether...

um yeah. THIS was in my mail this morning and I about peed my pants. I really didn't think he would write the poor BFA costume fangrls back but he did. his lovely assistant Melanie even put a little note in about how busy he was but took the time to sign it before he left for New York (right before you saw him Katie~) big lusting sigh. I know I say it a bunch but Alan Rickman fixes everything. I was completely down and in a funk but this shook me out of it. just a pic from my dream man did the trick. now I can fix any flaw in my ms, deal with any hiccup at work, battle the admin demons at school or whatever fate throws in front of me because dun dun dun!!!! I've got a pic of him!!!!!

yeah buddy

I think this is so funny. probably because I enjoy being so awesome. sad thing is that most people fail to appreciate the degree of my awesomeness.they seem to see it far too late but that's okay. I know I'm pretty freakin awesome. just not in the snotty way.
one thing I am feeling less than awesome about is my ms. I am working hard on it but sometimes I feel sort of hopeless. I feel like I am the only one who sees the uniqueness of it. that worries me. it's probably just a temporary feel ing but sometimes it sucks. and not in the cool vampire way.

merry christmas to all and to all a good night!

this is funny to me. I so adore Bela. anyway...I am taking a break from cooking my christmas eve meal of homemade spaghetti. not very traditional I know but Maddy's daddy is here and he loves my sauce and since he is italian, that's quite a compliment. tomorrow night is our big dinner. either way, it will be lovely because family is together again(albeit a nontraditional family).
speaking of nontraditional, I am thinking of my fictional vampire family.well not my family but Sidney's. I was thinking about how his life paraelles many stories. in a way his is a story of almost redemption. or the short vampire version. he has to change his ways to thrive and become more powerful. otherwise he would just stagnate. he has to realize that just because you are the oldest  active vampire on earth, it doesn't mean that you are perfect. he has to re embrace his role as a vampire and at the same time come to terms that vampires and people are not always what he expects or wants. this is all a tall order and I think makes him a compelling character. it's hard enough to adjust to changing times and people. imagine if you were a lonely, thousand year old vampire.
anyway, merry christmas to everyone out there!!I hope it's magical for all!!

and now...gaze in wonderment at Sam Neill. YUM

so here you go! just take a gander at him.mmmmm. made of awesome much like Tim Tebow but with as much sex appeal to slap the taste out of your mouth Sam Neill. with the upcoming Daybreakers movie, I have been reminded just how awesome he is.he's sexy and delish on multiple levels. he can be a good guy(Dead Calm and Jurassic Park) or he can be the devil (The Final Conflict) and either way, he just makes the panties want to come off. I have been a  fan of his since I saw him in Reilly Ace of Spies in 1983. I named my boxer dog Reilly and around that time, I started writing a form of Primigenio and named my vampire Sidney. (yeah, it's been that long) tastiness aside, he is a remarkable actor and person. he even has his own winery in New Zealand.
this is why I just adore looking at this man. he, like my other dream man AR, is a thinking woman's sex symbol. you just want to be around him. you know that he has something brilliant to say. and when he isn't around you know he is off doing something awesome or maybe even just chillin drinking wine.(that he MADE) he inspires revisions in my ms !

go check out brilliant Katie's clip of AR on her AWESOME blog!!!!

http://oneschemeofhappiness.typepad.com/home/2009/12/alan-rickman-talk-about-die-hard-while-i-watch-bad-harry.html

dude, Dr Kaku says it's possible to build a death star!!

so I'm watching sci fi science with the awesome brilliant Dr Michio Kaku and he says that within 100 years it will be totally possible to build a death star. sweet! now he's saying teleportation may be possible as well. now there is just no way that I can understand this but I think it's fascinating. if I won the lotto, I would pay just to sit and listen to Dr Kaku talk about all of his brilliant ideas. anyone who breaks science down to examples with hot dogs and legos is cool. 

holy crap this is trippy music

okay so I was taking a break from finishing 20 pairs of bow flip flops for a local jr high dance squad and I turned on the AMAZING Hearts of Space on satellite radio. anyway, tonight's show was when space met rock featuring a slew of awesome music by Pink Floyd, King Crimson  and others in that vein.  needless to say, I am now completely mellow. I feel like I should have candles burning and be riding on the wave of some substance that might or might not alter ones perceptions.lol. not that I would know anything about that sort of thing. anyway, my point of this is when I hear music like this and can appreciate it's influence on my  mood or outlook, I have to stand back in awe. I love music but seldom realize it's intense power. sometimes I wish I could just walk around with my ipod on all the time. or at least have it handy when I am stressed or angry. music for me can be like therapy. it's magic.

cue crescendoing music in anticipation for...Sam Neill as a vampire!!!!SQUEE!

so today,early, I saw a trailer for the new movie, Daybreakers with one of my favorite actors...Sam Neill. when I saw this, I was like was that really my man Sam? could he really be playing...a vampire?!?! HECK YES he can be playing a vampire. I've already marked my calendar and made this picture my wallpaper to further inspire me while I do my edits. Yum. an awesome, expensive suit wearing, corporate villain vampire in the flesh. I swear this is like a Christmas gift!I won't get it until january 8th but that's a okay.
this variety of vampire is infinitely sexier than others I've seen recently with the exception of the Alexander Skarsgard as Eric Northman on True Blood. A close second behind him is Frank Langella as Dracula with Richard  Roxburgh as Dracula rounding out the list. I just KNOW that Sam Neill is going to make my vamp loving heart melt and me go squee!